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After Elias

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A modern queer tragedy about a pilot's last words, an interrupted wedding, and the fear of losing everything. 

"A truly rare and wonderful book."

— Timothy Taylor, author of Stanley Park and The Rule of Stephens

When the airplane piloted by Elias Santos crashes one week before their wedding day, Coen Caraway loses the man he loves and the illusion of happiness he has worked so hard to create. The only thing left behind by Elias is a recording of his final words, and even Coen is baffled by the cryptic message.

Numb with grief, he takes refuge on the Mexican island that was meant to host their wedding. But as fragments of the past come to the surface in the aftermath of the tragedy, Coen is forced to question everything he thought he knew about Elias and their life together. Beneath his flawed memory lies the truth about Elias—and himself.


From the damp concrete of Vancouver to the spoiled shores of Mexico, After Elias weaves the past with the present to tell a story of doubt, regret, and the fear of losing everything.


Find After Elias at your favourite local bookseller or online.

Also available in Spanish from Dos Bigotes Editorial.

Praise for After Elias

2021 finalist for the Edmund White Award for LGBTQ Debut Fiction

— The Publishing Triangle

2021 finalist for the ReLit Award for Best Novel 

— The ReLit Awards


"A truly rare and wonderful book, utterly engrossing throughout. Coen is a hero for our era, darkly struggling amid the aftershocks of loss, but doing so with dignity, humanity, and passion. Tracking Coen’s progress towards answers is a riveting and emotional journey. Watching him in his relationships is a richly rewarding meditation on love, friendship, betrayal and the undying hope for reconciliation."

— Timothy Taylor, author of Stanley Park and The Rule of Stephens

"Eddy Boudel Tan has written an immersive, unpredictable, engaging first novel propelled by mystery, softened by tenderness, and enriched with little wisdoms."

— Patrick Nathan, author of Some Hell

“A dark tale bravely told with great clarity and beauty, After Elias treads nimbly down a dangerous path. Eddy Boudel Tan has crafted a page turner from a set of unlikely ingredients—tragedy, grief, pain and the darker shadows of the human mind. But most of all he has written tenderly, resplendently, about love."

— Christopher J. Yates, author of Black Chalk and Grist Mill Road

"In his heartfelt and highly engaging debut, Eddy Boudel Tan asks us to stare into the dark waters of one man’s personal tragedy and help make sense of the pieces that wash up onto the shore. At times mysterious and surprising, the novel is a compelling and tightly bound examination of grief, shame, doubt and the darkness that conspires to dissolve our most beloved relationships. A joy to read."

— Christopher DiRaddo, author of The Family Way and The Geography of Pluto

"After Elias promises from the start to be a puzzle. This is no simple mystery, and the layered psychological struggles and revelations kept me furiously turning pages until the very end. With chapters that shift through time along with the narrator's emotions, a cast of very real but relatable secondary characters, and a haunting sense of the past, After Elias gifts the reader with gorgeous, economic prose and the pace of a thriller. I couldn't put it down."

— Natalie Jenner, author of The Jane Austen Society

"An unpredictable, queer, emotional ride delivered in prose so smooth and controlled, even the pages that break your heart do so with slick, polished ease.”

— P.J. Vernon, author of Bath Haus and When You Find Me

Best picks of fall 2020

— The Globe and Mail

Most anticipated LGBTQ books of October 2020

— Lambda Literary

Book of the Month for November 2020

— Toronto Word on the Street Festival

Most anticipated books of fall 2020

— 49th Shelf

5 literary debuts that got us excited 

— Xtra Magazine

Best emotionally charged LGBTQ+ novel 

— Reader's Digest

“It's rare to find a book that works well as a deeply emotional exploration of grief and as a suspenseful thriller, but After Elias manages this feat." 

— Booklist

“Arresting... [a] deftly crafted novel.”

— Foreword Reviews

“Intriguing... The novel has plenty of rewards.”

— Publishers Weekly

“Sad, beautiful, and haunting. It will enthrall you and stay with you.”

— Midwest Book Review



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